I haven't blogged on this site in a while. Why? I tell myself it's because I don't have the time. Truth is, I spent my time on something else. I set this on the back burner. I don't think I wasted my given time, just did something I felt was more important.
Time is valuable. You only get each moment once. Once it's gone, it's gone.
I have been learning to spend my time on the things and people that matter. Things that will have an eternal impact. Yes, I still clean my house and read the paper. I'm not busy all day long, but rather have placed a priority on my husband and children.
My older two children are scarred from their parents divorce in such a way that time is the most important gift I can give them. They are in constant fear that they are not going to get time with a parent. It has made them very insecure. So in my only earthly way to show them that God always has time for them, I too give them the gift of my time. No I don't dote on them all day long and make sure they are entertained. I know that's not what God has called me to. I do make sure that I am available to them at all times. When I am cleaning, reading, baking or playing they know they can approach me and I will be there. They often hug me good night and tell me they are so glad that I am there with them every day. To them, my being there equals love. Although, there are days they just take it for granted that I will be there and they tend to focus on other things and start to get insecure again.
So I began to really think about my relationship with God. I think I take advantage of the fact that God is always there with me and I can always approach Him. So much so that sometimes I ignore Him until I need Him. That is so wrong of me! In order to be what my family and husband need from me, I HAVE to spend time with God. I need to be with Him when I'm cleaning, baking...everything. I need to make the relationship with Him my priority even above my husband. When I start my day with spending time and thoughts on Him, then later spending time in His Word listening to what He has for me, I was much more secure. I felt secure in my parenting and in being a good wife. Knowing that I was resting in God and what he had for me that day made by time go much better. My whole family benefits.
So now I set out each day to focus my time on God and what He has in store for me. When I fail, because I will, I will start all over again.
